The Voice Unheard

2008-07-22T22:18:00.000+08:00

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2008-07-22T22:17:00.000+08:00

Hooray!!

2008-07-19T19:01:00.006+08:00

We made it! Our team qualified for the final round of Yaman Gensan Best Business Plan and we are one of the top 5 finalists to defend our papers this coming Monday, July 21st. Salamat sa mga sumoporta at tumulong samen. We'll be having our mock defense tomorrow and we hope and pray that our defense would go smoothly both on rehearsal and on the final presentation. Salamat. Godbless samen.

Title: A Business Plan in Putting Up BioFer Manufacturing Plant in General Santos City.
Collaborators: C. Balila, L. Buenavista, Y. Gonzales.

Two other entrants from NDDU qualified, namely, the team of F. Vilasencio and J. Nietes. Ganbatte Kudasai Ne.

TO:EVERYONE

2008-07-09T08:30:00.006+08:00

"Remember those ships who pass through your day,
touching your life just once,
sending you into a better direction than your life was headed."
Michelle C. Ustaszeski

You were on my mind. Thanks for becoming a part of my life, and most of all, for letting me share a journey with you. (^__^)y~

Circle of Friends

2008-06-28T19:47:00.003+08:00

I love the people around me. Even when I'm hateful, they persevere. Never for once did I ever think I'm not deserving to have them as my friends. But instead, I feel blessed to have them around. Only Pharisees look down on sinners. Christ loved them, it's the sin that he hates.

Even when I'm down, they are there even when I don't need them - they just stay and make their presence felt. Even if they stay silent and seem that they never mind, I never lost faith in them. They're just a call away and they'll come rushing at my side.

They don't really spoil me, and that's what I love about them. They'll tease me, shove dirt on my face (not literally though) and push me off the cliff, but they'll come pick me up and tend on my bruised knees. They're not really brutal, but what scares me is that they could read my mind. Being transparent sometimes is a good thing too. Well, at least I don't have to talk much about things that are too hard to mention - we've been used to speaking with you-know-what things and we're fine with that. I suppose.

But I'm just glad they can also be here. And not just remain there. It has always been a comfort to be able to feel warm hugs from them, especially when I'm cold. It has always been fun playing tease with the icky guys and being sweet with the gals.

So, let me say, arigatou gozaimasu!!!

Emmeline, Kiever, Jill, Elzen, Jabi, Erick and Dennis!

Ems, for the hugs and pisil-pisil.
Kiever, for reading my mind.
Jill, for the cheers.
Elzen, for trying to be nice in being frank.
Jabi, for the scolds.
Erick for being the guy who knows.
Dennis, for trying to understand.

Well, I'm not going to die yet. So don't worry. There are still so many things I want to thank about. That would have to be all just for now. It's too mushy for me, but. Whatever.

Unpublished Post

2008-06-09T23:59:00.004+08:00

Love doesn't make someone weaker but makes anyone stronger. It is during this time when one has to become vulnerable and open to let the other person come in to become part of his/her life.

It is the time when courage is mostly needed to face the fears of rejection and pain while at the same time trying the best to put the heart on guard & protect it.

Only the brave have the right to love, those who run away from it are the real cowards. They are the ones who would never dare try to express their emotions. Instead, they deny and ignore it ... until they lose the feelings into oblivion.

The Gift of Today - That's why it's called the 'Present'

2007-11-10T18:48:00.001+08:00

If yesterday was just a dream and today is the reality, then what could tomorrow be?

The unfathomable future?

The former, the latter, and the consequent ... I doubt so.

We learn from the past, live in the present, and we anticipate for the future.

There's no such day that's wasted nor a time that was ever idle once we have learned to live each day with a purpose.

There's not a day that is as identical with the precedent. Everyday always is unique and it is never the same as yesterday. It is a blessing to be given another opportunity to grow and become a better person than we were in the past. Even if the day's schedule is not as heavy as it should have been, even if there were too much or too little time, each time exhausted, occurring or potential will always be essential ... the unpredictability of each day never makes it mundane ... but exciting (and challenging ... indeed).If yesterday always seem to hold us back, and regrets hold us in prison, learn and let go. Move onwards, let us stop delving on the past because what has been expended can never be undone.If today did not end up the way we wanted it to be, and if today wasn't as great as yesterday, bear in mind, if the present is always unwrapped with all the gifts we had wished for, then tomorrow wouldn't have to be unpredictable. What is there to look forward to?If tomorrow always takes today's concern, remember, anxiety does not empty tomorrow's worries but it depletes today's potentials. So before setting up plans for tomorrow, live yet for today as if it were the last, free yourself from yesterday and live each day not according to YOUR plans, but on how HE wants you to.

Choice

2007-10-11T20:58:00.002+08:00

When is a choice ever made right? Would it be when there were no regrets felt? Could you really lose something that you've never had? Well, just a little something to ponder about.

I heard this quote from one of my favorite DJ's in Home Radio:

Would you rather have a life with love but with thorns; or a life without love but with no roses?

Intriguing and deep. I wouldn't even want to know what my answer would be - at least, not yet for now.

I don't know what i am doing here

2007-07-01T17:55:00.002+08:00

Clearly, i tried to alter things that was already planned for me. That is what i know as changing my destiny. My fate is what i mold. But now i finally realize that what's never meant to be will never be. All I can say is that i was just a fool in His sight and i need to save myself from further shame. I shall never regret the time that i have wasted today because i'm taking it as a lesson learned. I shall never yearn but for what His will shall be done and i shall not want. Whatever He has planned for me will be made before my eyes and i shall be patient and wait for such time to materialize. Today, there are better things that are set for me, and as i patiently wait, i shall never keep idle time as stagnant, but flowing and productive.

I really feel disappointed about myself today but nevertheless, i shall never allow such thing to happen again. I shall forget my mistake but i shall never forget what i have learned today. To Him be the glory. Amen.

Many People Come and Go

2007-06-23T12:11:00.001+08:00

But only a few ever stay, and even when they do, they only stay for a while. You'll only realize they're gone when they've already left. You'd never know that they have their other foot outside the door all the time.

When strangers come to your life, be careful of trusting them your heart. You'll never know they'll leave like thieves in the middle of the night, stealing a part of you and all that's left is your shattered heart.

People come and go. Never wish for them to stay. Because they never will. When they have no reasons to stay.

HappY

2007-06-16T19:10:00.001+08:00

A lot of things happened lately, and they were good things, not so surprising but relieving. EhhhHhH? Nothing, just so happy, and glad that school wasn't worse than i thought it would have been, that aside, i'm happy that school's back. With so many reasons. n_n

Summer vacation is OVER!!!

2007-06-12T20:37:00.001+08:00

*insert tears here*

i now say byebye vacation...teh long hours of sleep, teh late morning naps, teh afternoon siestas ... i bid my adieu. i no longer will be oversleeping, but instead, i'll be good as a walking dead corpse with dark cirlces under my eyes. i never said school is the cause of stress, but my attitude towards it does. i suck at time management, so in the end, i always get a backfire and work late at nights on an eve of a deadline.

anyways, i'll be looking forward for my third year as a university student. YaaaY... and hopefull, i'd be able to find where my kokoro went. HahaAhhha. maybe somebody has already taken it? i doubt that. /gg

the sad part about tonight is: I WASN'T ABLE TO FINISH MY sStory!!! the one that I started last sunday. i couldn't find my pen inside my head! i think it was fell in the nerves on my spine? then i'd better start swimming towards teh direction of my backbone. >____<

Deviantart

2007-06-09T13:42:00.000+08:00

Lately I have been inspired to get a hold of my pencil and start sketching. *sigh* thankfully, i was able to finish my SUNAKOxKYOHEI fan art!! just had it scanned and hopefully i would be able to upload it at my deviantart after the finishing touches. Uhnnn, i'm proud of my work even if my drawing don't exactly look like sunako and kyohei from PGE.

Anyways, just updating blog while waiting for tuneup to finish its scan on the pC i'm using in editing my work.

Ja Ne.! Ganbatte to me n_n

Should I say it?

2007-06-07T22:35:00.000+08:00

Words if unspoken, will forever remain unheard and buried in silence.

Many say that the persons who do not have the confidence to speak up what they truly feel are just plain cowards. Those are the persons who would rather live the rest of their lives asking the question 'what if' and wake up each day with regrets on their hearts.

Why are simple words so hard to utter? Why does it take so much guts to voice them out? Could it be because of pride? Perhaps. And fear...of rejection. It's not easy to be hurt. Nobody wants to be in pain either. It's true that silence hurts but most often than not, words hurt even more.

However, with silence, there also comes the consequence of not hearing the words one wanted to hear in return. Blurting the dreaded words out would only lead to two results: be accepted, or get rejected.

You would never know unless you try. Say it, get hurt, and move on; than live forever in the agony with the question of "what if's".

Say it now, who knows? Maybe too soon might just be a second too late.

Should I say it?

2007-06-07T22:27:00.000+08:00

Words if unspoken, will forever remain unheard and buried in silence.

Many say that the persons who do not have the confidence to speak up what they truly feel are just plain cowards. Those are the persons who would rather live the rest of their lives asking the question 'what if' and dream away with regrets on their hearts.

Why are simple words so hard to utter? Why does it take so much guts to voice them out? Could it be because of pride? Perhaps. In my case. Yes. And fear. That's because I admit I am a coward. And I have pride overflowing within me. But what can I do? I just can't. And I don't want to. Because. I don't want to get hurt. Even when silence hurts. But words hurt even more. Because, when I finally say those words, I couldn't give reasons. I couldn't even assure myself if i would be able to keep it. And I don't know if it will be returned.

Love is complicated. Why does love have to hurt so much? Maybe because I was loving the wrong guy? The person giving me my best smiles...also happens to be the person to cause me much pain. But i can't say it to him that he makes me feel that way. What would I tell him? I love him so much that it hurts? Well, it's true. But why do I feel pain? Has he done anything wrong? Or...is it because he has done nothing at all?

The Law of Equivalent Trade

2006-05-10T11:00:00.000+08:00

Humankind cannot gain anything without first giving something in return. To obtain, something of equal value must be lost. That is alchemy's First Law of Equivalent Exchange. In those days, we really believed that to be the world's one, and only, truth. But the world isn't perfect, and the law is incomplete. Equivalent Exchange doesn't encompass everything that goes on here. But I still choose to believe in its principle: that all things do come at a price. That there's an ebb, and a flow, a cycle. That the pain we went through did have a reward and that anyone who's determined and perseveres will get something of value in return, even if it's not what they expected. I don't think of Equivalent Exchange as a law of the world anymore. I think of it as a promise between my brother and me - a promise that someday, we'll see each other again. — Alphonse Elric, Fullmetal Alchemist

Break away ...

2006-02-24T18:17:00.000+08:00

Let go ... of the love that can never be yours ... or risk yourself with the pain of loving ...
Give up ... of being a hopeless romantic ... or crush yourself with the thorns of helplessness ...

Should it be the time that I must bid my farewell for the moment that never shall be allowed to go on? Shall I say goodbye once again like what I did the last time? Shall I suffer once again with the regrets? Shall I be asking myself once again the dreaded question ... What if ...?

Wouldn't you at least try to show me a flicker of hope or are you as scared as I am to let your heart move and say what it should and show what if shall feel? Would you be ready to tell me that you let yourself fall for me? Or shall the both of us stay reserved and let the words wanting to speak remain forever unsaid?

You shall never know ... and I shall never realize ... or ... shall I?

I miss Joo

2005-11-18T12:47:00.000+08:00

And i'm hooked again with joo...

mwah mwah mwah ...

lav ya, my PC ^_^

Hanggang sa ngayon, mahal parin kita. Pinipilit ko lang ang lumayo ...

2005-08-27T12:15:00.000+08:00

It hurts to get separated from the one you've really loved, yung tipong di mo makayang mabuhay nang di mo nakikita, di mo nahahawakan. Sheesh, kainis nga eh, para nga namang nagbreak kami. Pero di pa yan clear, wala nmn talagang word na break up ang lumabas sa bunganga ko eh ( basta, ako ung indirect na nagdeclare ng cool off or baka break na nga.) Waaaa... gusto ko nang makipagbalikan, pero pride lang to ... well, part narin dito ung being practical. STUDIES first, FOCUS. Yeah, kasi nga nmn, nawawala ako sa FOCUS pag kaharap ko siya. It's not as if I want to THINK and DECIDE and be RESPONSIBLE of my future. Yeah, SYA kc ang FUTURE ko. Well, i'd more likely want to GET MARRIED sa kanya. Ganyan ko sya kamahal. Kulang nalang, ako ung mag propose.

"will you marry me?"

Hahaha, buti sana kung sasagot un ng OO, o nga nmn, alam kong mahal nya rin ako, it shows. Obvious nga eh. Trying hard nga not to upset me (pero there are really times na na uupset me sakanya, but it has always been managed well)

Ang tanga ko no... heto na, andito na lahat lahat, eh .... amp nmn, ako pa ung lumayo. ABAH, muwiset nga nmn talaga. Well, i just have to keep distance. Pero, OUCH... kelangan na yatang i renew ung relationship. Miss na miss ko na sya, heto ako ngaun, nagtitiis sa isang subsititute, eh nalalabi na rin ang oras niya <<< malapit nang mag expire....

O...... MAHAL KITA, MISS KITA

Everytime i walk along the corridor, your image pops out on my head, and it makes me realize how i REALLY REALLY MISS YOU. And, well, paulit ulit na nga, I can't live a day without you <<< wag kang magtaka kung bakit hanggang sa ngaun, buhay parin ako <<< well, di pa nmn tlga ako Battery Empty eh... kaya ko pa to.. titiisin ko. I'll wait for time, for time to heal me. For time to help me live my life without you.

ANG SAKIT

teka, bago ako magpapaalam,

uulitin ko

MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA,
O aking Computer ...

yeah, mahal ko Computer namin sa bahay, I can't live without it, pero i have no choice, i have to keep my distance, kundi, masisira ako....
But i hope, sooner or later, magiging ON uli kami, at makakasama ko na syang muli nang may 6+ na oras araw araw. I know, it's destiny. Kaya, maghihintay ako, kung kelan tama na ang mali.

Ulit.

I LOVE YOU, MY COMPUTER....

BALIW NA BALIW AKO SAU

AT NGAUN NMNG HINDI TAU MAGKASAMA

isipin mo nalang (at iisipin ko rin)
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BROWN OUT LANG

Blithe Bonita

2005-08-26T23:23:00.000+08:00

Happy Ladies, these are we
Laughter and joy, these we share
We walk as if we own the road
Hand in hand we talk as loud
Giggle and cuddle and hugs everywhere
Kisses and pecks and cheeks to say we care
We sat till dusk on our haven's bliss
We'd open hearts 'till night begins
Goodbye for day are same with Hi's
Tomorrow at school we'll meet again
MY companions
My confidants
My friends
My life
My soul
My body
My heart
Now we're away
Life's not anymore the same
I feel all alone
Without them I am insane
I miss them much, this keeps me sad
Hope someday we'll meet again.

Nothing new but...

2005-08-26T23:18:00.000+08:00

Now I couldn't count the days when was the last time I ever sat for almost an hour and so just surfing the net. Time has been too precious lately that I couldn't afford to waste it on unproductive activities. There's no need enumerating academic works which eat most of my time, it's a cliché, it's part of life and so what. I really don't need to display my “busy-ness”. Bah.

Anyways, cheer dance competition is on our intramurals and we are to compete among 30+ PE1 classes. We are to perform 4th on Tuesday, September 6. Now that gives us only a week and a few days to polish our moves. By the way, I’m part of the lifters group. We are the so-called props of our team. We’re totally separated from the dancers. Now that upsets me (but not really that much ^^, coz I like being the dummy [ooh, it’s not as if I’m really thrown up in the air <<<>.< ] because I’ve enjoyed our dance steps and has made me sweat, unlike being lifted shoulder-length level, it doesn’t give me a damn of a sweat, aside from the heat and dampness of the surroundings. Nestea (yeah, Rosnete, it’s you I’m referring to, I’d love to call you by that name, liked it? Hehe), I hope you’d be able to read this ^^, (as well with the rest of the Blithe Bonita, damn, I miss you guys so much) I just don’t have time to tell you what has been going on with my life ( you certainly know that I wouldn’t care use my allowance to load my cp. ^^, I’m not anymore addicted with it. >.<>.< >>> but yeah, I learned to like cheer dancing … much ^^, noticed I’ve been too enthusiastic with our routine practices ^^. Although my group well … err ... are much of using up most of the time with “breaks” ^^.

I’d love to share more on Sunday … >.<>.<>.<>.< *YAWN* stealing a few minutes of the time where I’m supposed to be dead as a log on my bed ish… nevermind … hafto go.

OMOKAGE

2005-08-17T19:01:00.000+08:00

images of the past, thoughts in the shadow

well, title ng piano piece which i am trying to play na....

hands on started last sunday, and ... well, it takes me 4 measures in 2 hours per day ... *sigh* ang hirap nmn kc ng piece eh... owkay lang, the score's a challenge itself kaya... YAY! talaga pag natapos ko ito ... next week siguro... >.< hoping for teh best nalang ^^

*sigh*
*sigh*
*sigh*

masaya ako

*sigh*

maniwala nalang kayo para tapos na agad ^^

*sigh*
*sigh*

hey, i wanna write a lighthearted poem, eh kaso, being lighthearted ish not my field... well, it would be a challenge ... sge, hihintayin ko nalang ang araw na yun, na kung saan nasa mood akong magsulat <<<>.<

YAY!!!!

2005-08-13T08:53:00.001+08:00

SAWAKAS!!! AT LAST!!! hehehe, natapos na rin ang midterm exams!!! I'm free i'm free i'm free!!! *jumps up and down.... *BLAG*

*UNTOG*

*OUCH*

hehehe, wala lang, masaya me kc carry ko ang lumabas sa exams although i really couldn't assure that i'd have excellent grades...mababaw lang nmn ako eh, sana nmn at least, wala akong basak... average lang gud. >.<>.<>> College Algebra, well, anyways, accepted rin nmn na mahina talaga me dyan kahit na nagstudy me >.< pano kc, di ko agad na gets ang concept ng problem. BAH... jush forget it ^^, baka masira pa mood ko eh ^^.

Abah, tagal tagal ko na pala di naaupdate tong bloggie na to. ^^, busy sa pagchachat eh, at isa pa, wala sa mood, parang don rin sa pag r RB.... waaaa. FANFARE is dying na talaga... sheesh , i hope guys out there would find a way to resurrect it, minahal ko pa nmn tlga ung thread na yun >.< *minahal daw, eh ako pa ung nang iwan eh ....*

*BLAG*
*UNTOG*
*ULIT*
*BUKOL*

nye

well, that was really masakit ha....<(-_-)> sigh.... double-edged sword....ang talim ah... uhmm, yeah, before i forget, ung napagstudyhan ko kanina ... guess nyo what time ^_^ ah, 3am lang nmn, well not too early, really...nyways, ,ay nadaanan lang kc meng pangalan which /omg wala ah.... kung sabagay, eh walang araw na >.< wala ah... ano ba tong pinagsasabi ko....

sheesh, my world is going in circles, epekto ba to ng 1week na gigising nang maaga para lang magstudy?... i doubt it.. siguro it was about last night....waaaaaaaaa... no. tama na, shut up... Rain....teka, basta dito sa Southern Mindanao pagakakaalam ko di umulan, ang taas taas nga ng araw eh, pero ... ah, my eyes hurt. Umulan kaya? teka... *O.O* nahihilo na talaga ako...waaaaaaaaaaa................. ano ba to >.<

well, i'm not really feeling well today... pero cge lang, i'll try to recover asap.... may practice pa us sa cheerdance eh... wala na, circles na..............ang bigat na ng ulo ko, pero ayaw nang pumikit ng eyes ko, pagod na eh.... teka, ano ba tong pinagsasabi ko.

i should be happy today, dapat nga i should reward myself eh, bat ganito.... nawala na sa plano.... teka.... can i just smile nalang.... ^_^

This is I

2005-08-03T19:23:00.000+08:00

Eighty-plus adjectives that best describe the inscrutable, enigmatic me:

I am moody, serious, quiet, a loner - whether I am concentrating on something or when I don't feel being the playful, carefree, humorous, talkative, noisy and gleeful me. In short, I am unapproachable when I am poker-faced; otherwise you could face the cold, uncaring, frank and offensive me. I feel sorry with my chaps when I treat them those ways, but it's just that I can't get away from being an irritable, huffy, cantankerous person. Along with it, I can be proud, witty, smart and confident but somehow there are hints of my being absent-minded, nescient, panicky, jittery, foolish, dull and insane.

However, there are many times when I am helpful, dutiful and responsible. Most of the times I show initiative and it's up on my lazy, sloppy and careless self whether I would accept or object and complain.

Sometimes I can be meticulous and a critic, arrogant, piquant person. It's either that I think before I speak or talk before giving anything a thought - mostly I would hate myself for unknowingly being revolting beforehand. Unluckily I am misunderstood along with being hated. My big bad mouth that even my mindful self can't even shut it up.

I am eager and curious with the things that catch my mind yet I can be aloof and apathetic, who cares? I tend to put myself on one's shoes and can be understanding yet practical minded and neoteric.

Issues are thought practically and my open-minded brain always involves itself on endless debates that end up with no side right; however my hard headed, decided brain orders one to be correct. Was I critical minded? I know I am sometimes.

I am sensitive although I may pretend to be as hard as rock. I was hated and envied, yet little do they know that I myself am envious at them with so many things.

Although I may be brave, a part of me is always scared at the harsh realities of life. I am uneasy in so many things as well. I am outstanding to people who were satisfied with what they saw from me. A little do they know that I myself am insatiated. I never was satisfied. I never considered myself excellent with anything. I keep on telling myself that there is always someone better than me; I am humble and thankful with what I have, yet I am still unconvinced with my talents. I consider none of them my strengths yet I openly accept my weaknesses - I cannot utter a tune nor move with the rhythm, I could not even involve myself on heavy athletic activities. I am flabby.

I am persuasive to develop with what was given to me.

I can be ambitious and dreamy, everybody is. I am also a daydreamer - romantic and adventurous; most of the time I live myself on fantasy rather than with the reality but due to the school pressure, should I still live in a castle in the sky? I think it's time for me to wake up.

I am secretive - well everyone got their secrets and that includes me.

Summing it all up, I am a universal person who acts and feels like every person in this world. Nothing really sets me apart from them, but my mood swings which make me unpredictable . . .

Goodnight

2005-08-03T05:12:00.000+08:00

I stare up the velvet sky,
With me in your arms you hold tight;
I wish I could blissfully die,
In love's sweet embrace it feels so light.

I see the moon watch over you,
And clouds so dark, so gray, so blue;
Let its light reflect your azure eyes,
Bequeath them life from its sober gloom.

As I leave, follow me please never do,
For life on earth is better than where I am to;
And there's someone still waiting for you,
To love you more than I really do.

She'd caress your face that I never did,
Return you kisses I never felt;
She'd say I love you too, words I never said,
Make you feel loved, emotions I failed to prove.

I could have shown you but tonight's the end,
I can't touch, can't hold, nor blow you my first kiss;
For here I am, I lay in your arms,
So weak, so frail, so limp, so numb.

Just let tears fall from my lifeless eyes,
Despairingly, but this is my last goodnight;
You won't hear this but I'd say it still,
I love you too ... but this is goodbye.

Check my other blog

2005-08-02T20:56:00.000+08:00

it's for my Prose and Poetry ^^

http://rainsproseandpoetry.blogspot.com <<< leave a comment nalang rin.. as for now, i only have poems... am not really that goo poet though, pero anyways, maybe you could take a visit ^^...

Midterm Review

2005-08-01T20:38:00.000+08:00

wag na kaung magtaka ... next week na midterm exams namin...

Kaya I won't be that frequent starting.... well, it started last week pa...heheh....

WWWAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

2005-07-30T12:35:00.000+08:00

wala lang....pasaway lng talaga ako......hindi ako nakinig sa drug symposium namin kanina sa NSTP....gee.....nakakadiscourage ano? :p pki nyu.hehehe...

BTW, I've changed... i think >.< peo i'm still the same loreen evah. ^^ just enthusiastic I believe.... ^^

Hai, midterm...malapit na....

OUCh...sakit2x ng mga braso ko....kc nmn oh, sa practice nmn sa cheerdance nung thursday....masyadong rough >.< tapos ngaung hapon, may practice nnmn kami...hndi ko alam if kakayanin ko to... how i wish i could...may isa pa ring problema GOSH....i forgot my cap, pano na to, of all the things i should forget, ang hat ko pa tlga...hndi p nmn cgurado kung sa covered area kami magpractice, pano na pa sa open field? patay....

haay, bat parang nawalan ako ng gana ... kasi nmn eh, masyadong na overworked muscles ko...uy, before i forget, hindi natuloy yung intermission nmn para sa seminar kahapon, kasi nga nmn, kahapon hindi kami nakapagpractice with music, eh may problema kc ung player, kaya un, ala na, nah, no regrets rin nmn eh ^^

*sigh* bat parang biglan akong nawalan ng idea kung ano pa ang isusulat ko dito sa journal...nyways... buhbye for a while ^^

YAY!!!

2005-07-27T19:19:00.000+08:00

natapos na rin me sawakas sa project sa finance.... haay...after 3 nights staying late at night lay outing and et al... *phew* now i'm on the printing mode na..an bagal nga eh, more or less 5 mins per page ang printing, naka set kc sa best quality, 33 pages, how i hope hindi ako mabitin sa ink.../swt... nyways, proud me sa aking work... hahahahhahah.... ^^ pinaghirapan ko ata ito ^^.

*sigh* midterm exam is coming ... hafto keep away from internet starting today up to August 13....gee, but i do hope from time to time i'd drop by ... gee, 3 weeks is long enough.... >.<

muah muah muah to all...

*intermission dance this coming saturday...AJA...i can make this, i;m doing fair during practice nmn eh ^^himala nga nmn

How are you?

2005-07-26T13:20:00.000+08:00

Me?
I'm fine... still the same yet different. No person is consistent I believe.

I've become fond of collecting anime avvys for my YM Msgr, displaying an avvy in accordance to what I was feeling. Got loads of them and I'm finding it difficult sorting them out. /swt I should've sorted them first before I started saving them rather than dumping almost a thousand of them in a folder labelled : avatars. I have gotten acquainted with some RB-ers in YM, those which has stayed long ignored on my list (not literally though^^) well, just a few of them and we talked about stuffs, there is this one who's a paranormal enthusiast ... although I believe in what he shares, there are times when I find him unbelievable, in other aspects though, he says he can't leave home without a suit, and he's just 21. He's weird I even think he's fond of roleplaying and play pretend. Well, I respect him though. He sometimes give me goosebumps too especially when he talks about vampires ^^.

Here is another one, he occasionally texts me on my cellphone although I don't usually reply (in the first place, I don't buy myself a load nor do I plan to except when I really NEEDED it) with stuffs, I remember him text me about the SONA yesterday and how it got to be on the Guinness Book of World Records with the most applause/claps in a SONA, and when I watched the news about the SONA, I just can't uderstand why was the president applauded, there were even standing ovations /swt. He didn't like it too, even mentioned monkey, i just couldn't remember how he used it in the phrase... too oblivious meh...

Then there were other cool and uncool YM users PM - ing me from time to time as well as Reezah spamming her status messages... no harm about that, her occassional spamming is just fine for me. There is another whom I forgot, who uses to send some chain messages.... arrghhh, it was just fine for me too... i don't believe him anyway, there was just this one chain msg that i didn't like, something about my mother is going to die /omg ... kung kelan pa ba nmn on the night before, i dreamed the she really died ... well, maybe spamming the chain all the way could just give me assurance that she never will. /swt ... napasubo tuloy ako ...

Hmm... really, I haven't been serious with YM latey, I don't usually stay late at night as well except when I do homeworks (well, 11:30pm is not yet late, right? ^^)

I wonder if my last statement could offend this other chatmate. It's just that I really doubt his sincerity though that's why I'm not taking everyone seriously, I mean, get emotionally attached to them, I don't need a deja 'vu. That's all. Hmm, yeah, one thing that I noticed about me was that I doubt too much already, and I can't jsut easily believe individulas with their statements (no offense meant YM users) hmm... now I wonder how I could regain my trust to netizens back... now I wonder, why was it lost in the first place? I can't find a definite answer ...

Enough of my internet life, well about my real life... hmm, I really am doing fine academically (not to mention when I got a 0 in our Math 9 quiz... I just didn't comprehend the problem much ... my bad ...) but seriously, I'm doing fair if not excellent.

We still didn't get the results of our modelling grade in PE ... but who cares? We could wait until our teacher reveals it to us. Oh, by the way, we had just taken our advanced midterm exam in PE, and the exam was just okay. I couldn't guarrantee to have a perfect/excellent results though... just fair. ^^ ... now we're starting the practice for our cheerdance competition... gee, although I'm not a good dancer and dancing is one of my greatest weaknesses, I find I am enthusiastic about it. Now I gained confidence...

However, on our NSTP class... /omg this is one i am not sure if i ever could handle. We have to perform a pop dance this Sat...and we only have today until friday to practice... ahhhh...this is going to kill me as this would be presented as an intermission number for the seminar on that same day >.< I ... hope... i ... can.....make ... it...AJA....

GTG, got classes at 1:30... Management... oohh, I hope I won't get bored.... and PGS classes would be another promising class i believe... hahah, our Pengiun Teacher is so fun ^^ (no offense meant for her) I like her, really, she just bounces. Like my jabee..she's the second cutest...next to JAbee ^^

I Can't Breathe

2005-07-26T12:29:00.000+08:00

okay.... i drowned.... nlunod ako sa sabaw.... at isa pa.... na flush ko utak ko sa toilet kaninang umaga.... at may isa pa.....naglayas ang puso kow........................JOKE .... ang korny noH? char char lang gud..actually, (*gulp* wala pang nagpopost ng comment dito sa blog ko *anyways*) busy me lately for project sa finance... just working on the final touches nalang.... and lay out me uli, ang dami kcng nadagdagan ... nagmumukha na ko nitong pera dahil puro pera, pera, pera, ang kaharap ko sa computer since sunday night... plus tonigh (gee, i have tonight to finally finish it) hafto pass it na kc sa Friday...the plan is.... Tonight, kukunin ko yung printer sa house ng aunt ko (with what's left of the colored ink) magprprint ako ng mga first pages hanggang sa maubos yung katiting na ink sa cartridge... then tomorrow i have to rush to the mall to have an ink refill then (wednesday yan noH?) okay, then later at night, print the final pages...tapos bring the output on thursday at school to present it to my groupmates... then next day... yay!! pasa na keh titser... >.< I CAN DO THIS.... AJA...KAYA KO TOH.... ^^

sheesh

2005-07-23T12:42:00.000+08:00

^^ i'm sleepy >.<

nyways, NTSP class was fun today... we had a practice for our intermission number for the coming seminar this saturday >.< pop dance... argghh... i've got no skill on that yet... but am trying to learn :P ... me ish stiff... ^^

then later on, i dunno what was the essence of this activity, however our group were required to be blindfolded (except teh leader, luckily I was the leader ^^) te members are to form a human train then I as a leader must direct them to where they are supposed to go... turn around and walk on obstacles, it wasn't a contest really, but then, although we were the last group to have finished, it was fun ^^. I even took pictures from the activity... sad i wasn't included on the pic. >.< hawhaw, i was busy holding the camera on my right arm taking a shot without a focus while i was speaking my directions for them. ... i never thought it could have given me sweats... leading ish not really that easy ... nyways, i'm going to updload them later ^^, or soon ^^,

Can't Cry Hard Enough

2005-07-22T21:34:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna live my life
Like every day's the last
Without a simple goodbye
It all goes by so fast

And now that you've gone
I can't cry hard enough
No, I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now

Gonna open my eyes
And see for the first time
I let go of you like
A child letting go of his kite

There it goes, up in the sky
There it goes, beyond the clouds
For no reason why
I can't cry hard enough
No, I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now

Gonna look back in vain
And see you standing there
When all that remains
Is an empty chair

And now that you've gone
I can't cry hard enough
No, I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now

There it goes, up in the sky
There it goes, beyond the clouds
For no reason why
I can't cry hard enough
No, I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now

And now that you've gone
I can't cry hard enough
No, I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now

Left all alone

2005-07-19T22:16:00.000+08:00

All has left me and now I'm all alone.
I just deserved it. Now I'm all forgotten and ignored.
My weaknesses, my greatest fears. What I sow, what I reap. I took all for granted
and now all I have is just myself.

Finally

2005-07-19T21:05:00.000+08:00

Hah! Natapos na rin ang practicum namin sa PE. Yung modelling, unfortunately, it was a disappointment in our group's part ... nagkakalabasa kami ... you know, the squash thing. Hehe ... anyway, although we haven't really performed excellently, it was just fair. Ahhh ... "Rock Star" na ang tawag sakin ni Veronica ... mala Avril Lavigne daw ung style ko. (btw, punk yung concept nmn nun) *doubts that* Nyee. Sabi pa nga ni Carmela, na shock raw sila sa nakita nila. Parang hindi raw ako ... parang nasapi an raw ako ng demonyo ... sheesh. They said it was far from the "Loreen" they knew, that simple (shocks), elegant (eww), formal (ngeek), silent (doubts that) girl ... [I can't blame that, one month plng nmn kami nagsasama ng mga classmates ko eh, kya nmn yun ang first impressions nila sakin >.< [flexible lng kc tlga me eh kya na carry ko ung punk - ness kow ... sheesh ...] {tama na... goosebumps ...}

Awwww, anyways, the day was just okay, done the same routine and all... haha. But i hope it doesn't make life boring at least.

BTW, now I know the effects of logging in the school internet lab ... wala nga nmng key logger, kaso may mga nakakakuha pa tlaga ng link ko... >.< kasalanan ko rin nmn eh, too careless...

Kahit ano

2005-07-19T12:29:00.000+08:00

Blahblah. CutieLalai.bogspot.com... check mow. ^^

>.<

2005-07-19T00:01:00.000+08:00

Blog... edit, update, reconstruction... nothing. tired, used up, drained.

Tomorrow na ang modelling nmn, and i hope satisfactory ang presentation ng group nmn, hope i'd enjoy it as much as i enjoyed doing the practice.

>.< May...stalker...na...yata...akow...
He's been posting on my other blog... >.< i dunno...

Everything is just adding fire to the flame, if only i can have water to put out the fire.

Good night ^^ it's late already and i still have to prepare for tomorrow'
s activity ^^

I died the day I left you.

2005-07-18T21:51:00.000+08:00

Now you're the one who's leaving. I can't blame you. What right do I have? I was the one who left you first. What could make you stay when all the reasons to has forsaken you away? If only you know, I would do anything to make you remain but unfair as it is, I just have to let you go ... but before you do, could you just do me a favor?

Sleep

2005-07-18T06:04:00.000+08:00

Sleep in a way is a postponement for pain, it is a tranquilizer which make one relax and forget about anxieties. One's at peace (nightmares - go away!grrr) but when one wakes up, all those bitterness come back. Sleep...is...a...sweet...escape...

HAHAHAHA

2005-07-17T19:21:00.000+08:00

HAWHAWHAWHAWHAW... I'm LAUGHING OUT LOUD. ^^,

Lost

2005-07-17T19:05:00.000+08:00

Life gave me a lot of things to learn, things I should keep and I should let go, things to forget and sometimes regret. We get hurt, but why am I crying? It's because you're not anymore here to remind me ... to smile.

Yesh!!!

2005-07-17T10:42:00.000+08:00

>.< just woke up from sleep ^^

I guess i'll be taking brunch then. *stomach growls* hehe

<<<<<-----Finally, I got Jabee's pic uploaded. Yay!!! My cute oh sweet Jabee ... ^^, I'm obsessed with him. Tukmol (my peers) even suggested that I make him a fansclub. [!] why not [!] hawhaw. I've got lot of promising members and a veep. (guess who) hawhaw, ang karibal kow. ^^, Well, he's actually Jabee Jr. but not as equally as cute and he's fond of my Jabee too. ^^

What if

2005-07-16T19:27:00.000+08:00

What if today would be the last time you could ever talk with me, what would your last statement be and how would you make use of our remaining time together?

Hahaha

2005-07-15T22:05:00.000+08:00

Wala lang, i jush wanna post a pic here:

Me with my college berks. hahah, me, ish the one with teh smile ^^

Guy beshide meh: Kiever... dah uber duber math wiz ... jajajaja. Kalog rin yan, tulad meh, pikon nga lang ^^,

Dah girl on teh foreground : crush nyo? Hawhaw, astig yang si Meloy ... Kalog rin ... uber ...

Dah guy ... hawhaw, si Fritz, malupheet, malambing - raw (hahaha) totoo nmn ah. Totoo sa sarili ... >>> 'sa pa, he shares sikwets w/ us. Hahaha ... habulin daw ng mga ... bak - la ... aws, ganyan lang tlga cya kagwapo. Sorry nlng sila, he's already commited ^^

Meh? Walang dugong dumadaloy sa katawan ... am I so pale? Hawhaw. (buti nlng ditow sa pic, di xado.) Meh ish ... meh ish ... awws, bahala na nga kaung mag describe sakin ^^

BTW, wala si Jabee dito, mah cute and huggable Jabee... my teddy bear ... /sob, wala kasi sya nung dala kow ung cam... anyways, I got a cute cute cute pic of him ... kaso di pa maa upload. Teh cam's with dad, i hope tomorrow, when he comes home ... tsk ... uploaded na. ^^

Shing too ... (she's a she) is a prank woman, blunt. ^^, haha. She's kewl too. Warshock ^^,

Words That'll Never Reach Your Ears

2005-07-15T21:38:00.000+08:00

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And your eyes.

Eye Bags...

2005-07-15T18:45:00.000+08:00

Haha, normal lang sakin yan, ang ayaw ko lang nmn, eh kapag dinadalaw na akow ng antok. Hayan tuloy, hindi ako makapagconcentrate sa klase kanina, pero okay lang, the lectures were just easy so no prob. ^^ i dozed a bit, 1-2mins only though and about 3 x only. Not bad, i still got to linger my brain out to nowhere... hahaha ...

English was fine - we only had a review about S - LV - C (yeah, pinagsawaan ko na yan since high school) our teacher was too confident that we are already familiar with these that she started classes by sharing another anecdote of her life. Haha, we enjoy it much. She's a moves like a cute penguin and I find it adorable. *remembers my Jabee bestfriend (awws, the next most cute, huggable, chubby person who ever lived on earth is her ^^, but my beshfriend - ish teh best ^^

Filipino - well, nothing much. Still remained uninteresting. But, ughh, gotta have some recitiation points so... haha, just recited a few lines and returned my foggy mind into the blankness of unconsciousness and let it float over wherever it wanted to go.

Religious Education - we had our planting rites, got our hands dirty but worth it. ^^ nothing much really happened.

Then hour 3 hour leisure time... we went directly to the canteen and ... unfortunately, i didn't have my appetite to eat lunch (awws, we take lunch as early as 10:30 am, that way, dire diretso na lahat2x) so i just had 2 packs of Magic Flakes and Milo Freeze. Hawhaw, the rest were eating their lunches. >.<

Then we went directly to the library almost dragging my limp body (awws, i really didn't get much of that hour's sleep last night so, Low Bat na ako) i had to do my Algebra homework which almost pissed me off coz i just can't solve the figures right. Good thing my math wiz closefriend was present for me to check on how he had done it. Hawhaw, comparing works, that's what you call it. ^^ Finally, wow, i learned the right way in answering em. MUah, thanks Kiev, you really are a genius. ^^, (he's the one calling me Biskwit Queen... awwss, Magic Flakes nalang sana ang nickname nya sakin.. >.<)

Then i hafto study for our quiz in Finance... arghhhh, i really was tempted to doze.... >.< sheesh, bawal yun sa lib, kaya.... panakawnakaw lng ng tulog... mga 3-5 mins lang, then i'll review notes again.

Finally, natapos na ung 3 hour break... Algebra na ... passed assignments, board work (yung signments) well, i got to do #6, the one which pissed me off haha. Then prof continued lessons... bo - ring. I let my mind drift again ... haha ... the lessons were just fine, i can make up to it. ^^ (yabang)

ackkk.... ayun ginutom ako, i still got 2 more hours to go ... iba tlga when you eat your meal... ^^ ... awwwskk... grrrllll....

Finance.... ack... essay type pala ung quiz... i hope i got a fair grade.

Business Mathematics ... one of my favorite subjects with my fave prof... wow, *samba* hehe

Got perfect in the exercises. ^^ woot. 'syd from that, panakaw nakaw kain rin me ng Magic Flakes ^^

Ahhhhh.... finally, tapos na ang kalbaryo.... grabs beshfren Jabee (*awws, ang bigat mong hilahin*) towards the canteen... *bilish! bilish! nag poprotesta na ang mga bulate sa tiyan kow!! patatalsikin na yata ako dahil pinababyaan ko sila.!!!*

*phew* the way to teh canteen took longer than i expected. Ahhhh.... a slice of cake and iced tea... nagpalibre pa si Jabee ng fried isaw.... sige nalang.... *buys isaw*

eats cake, shares isaw too... drinks iced tea ... amp, di akow nabusog. haha, nalipasan na kasi ng gutom. yan, yan kasi. hahaha.

then we proceed to the gym, sat on the bleachers waiting for our members to come... but they didn't come... haha, napostpone uli ang practice sa modelling. ^^ owkay lang yun ^^

ahhhhh, uwi na rin me sawakas... hahah. Eto na me, updating mah blog.... harharhar...

/swt, walang kwenta /swt

Aaaaaaaahhhhhh!!!!

2005-07-15T10:19:00.000+08:00

Napostpone ang quiz. Nakalimutan ata ng prof namin. >.< edi mabuti ^^ Anyways, we just had another lecture ... well, the first 45 mins was okay, got my whole attention on the class (not to mention my being pissed off with this noisy student who use to talk nonsense with our teacher while on discussion, yung nakikisingit kung baga. napaka KSP nmn, trying hard ata magpatawa. Anyways, okay rin nmn sya et al minsan, at least, they keep the class alive. Ang masama lng, kapag nasobrahan na.

Well, anyways, malas ko lang, later on, dinalaw ako ng antok. Waaaa. I dozed ... mga 2 mins lang, I was half conscious rin nmn. Mga 3 - 5 times yata, ranging from 1 - 2 mins ang duration (bawal kaya ang matulog sa loob ng classroom) well, pinikit ko lng nmn ang eyes ko, head bowed to cover my face. That's all. Then huli na nang na realize ko na naktulog na pala me...

Oki blog, later na muna ... gotta continue doing the project due two weeks from now ^^

PE ... is great ^^

2005-07-14T12:51:00.000+08:00

Well, just had a normal day today ... and half of it was very fayn. (Yeah, half ... still noon ... right?)

This morning, we had a trial and blocking on the stage in our PE class for our group activity. Modeling. Yeah, our topic was posture and we have to do a fashion show ... gee ... nyways, I enjoyed it a lot. Walked with confidence (nagdeodorant kc me kanina) (at nag toothbrush pa with Close Up) (not to mention wearing the Confidence na ... [it's a girl thing *insert laugh here* sikwet]) /swt, where am I ... oh, yeah, i carried myself just fayn, I just do hope that I had at least a fair score (our teacher graded our posture then) really hard leaning on the wall flat on your back and then walk without breaking the "flatness" of the back. Well, got a fair posture here, hindi nmn talaga ako kuba no. ^^

Anyways, sa Tuesday na yung final, complete with outfit pa. Punk style ang napili ng group namen. Plus, they're sayin na kelangan maski isa sa group, mag mini - skirt ... *all eyes went to me* nyak, bat akow?

Carry naman siguro. (btw, bawal miniskirts sa campus, sleeveless and hanging blouse rin {see how conservative our school is? *you should doubt that* Kc nga nmn, meron pring pasaway na nakakapuslit at nakakapasok with those outfits.... *now I'm deviating from the topic*

Oh, by the way, di pa talaga kami nakagawa ng solid choreography, today was just impromptu. The group just wanted surprises. We've got practice nga today after classes. /swt kahapon nga meron sana, kaso iba yata inatupag ng grupo ... chit chat lang, edi na post pone nanaman. Anyways, I hope we could come up with a good presentation. ^^

*may quiz pa ko ngaun sa management, wish me luck ^^,*

Missing ...

2005-07-14T12:42:00.000+08:00

I ... miss ... someone ...

I ... wonder ... who ... that ... "someone" ... is ...

Foolish Heart

2005-07-14T12:05:00.000+08:00

-Nina-

I need a love that grows
I don't want it unless I know
But with each passin hour
Someone, somehow
Will be there, ready to share

I need a love that's strong
I'm so tired of being alone
But will my lonely heart
Play the part
Of the fool again, before I begin

Foolish heart, hear me calling
Stop before you start falling
Foolish heart, heed my warning
You've been wrong before
Don't be wrong anymore

I'm feelin that feelin again
I've been playin a game
I can't winLove's knockin on the door
Of my heart once more
Think I'll let him in
Before I begin

Foolish heart, hear me calling
Stop before, you start falling
Foolish heart, heed my warning
You've been wrong before
Don't be wrong anymore

Foolish heart
Foolish, foolish heart
You've been wrong before
Foolish heart, hear me calling
Stop before you start falling
Foolish heart, heed my warning
You've been wrong before
Don't be wrong anymore

Foolish heart
Oh foolishfoolish heart
You've been wrong before
Foolishfoolish heart
Foolish heart

My eyes are heavy ...

2005-07-13T12:38:00.000+08:00

I ...

Need ...

Sleep ...

ZzzzZZzzzzZZZzzzz

Sleepy

2005-07-13T12:21:00.000+08:00

I'm just sleepy... that's all ...

Pit

2005-07-12T09:11:00.000+08:00

Words are not to tell,
The time when i did fell,
From a love that's a spell,
That never could be well.

It came like a hail,
It caught me astray,
A storm and a gale,
It washed me away ...

SAME GROUND

2005-07-11T14:39:00.000+08:00

~Kitchie Nadal~

My love
It's been a long time since i cried
And left you out of the blue
It's hard
Leaving you the way
When i never really wanted to

Self denial
Is a game so strange i never really should've wanted
Til there was you
Cause i have learned that love was beyond
What human can imagine
More it clears
The more i gotta let you go

'cause what i don't understand
Is why i'm feeling so bad now
When i know it was my idea
I could've just denied the truth and lied
Now why am i the only one standing stranded
On the same ground

My love
It's been a long time since i cried
And left you out of the blue
It's hard
Leaving you the way
When i never really wanted to

Self denial
Is a game so strange i never really should've wanted
Til there was you
Cause i have learned that love
Is a word just thrown
A litlle bit too much of this
Excuse to fill this infinite of desire
And nevere ever have to fade

Cause what i don't understand
Is why i'm feeling so bad now
When i know it was my idea
I could've just denied the truth and lied
Now why am i the only one standing stranded
On the same ground

If all else fail
Would you be there to love me?
When all else fails
Would you be brave to see right through me?

Farewell

2005-07-11T14:08:00.000+08:00

Goodbyes for the better is bitterness itself.

Send my love to the toilet

2005-07-10T12:37:00.000+08:00

*FLUSH*

If Tomorrow Never Comes

2005-07-10T11:42:00.000+08:00

If I knew it would be the last time that I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If i knew it would be the last time that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word, so I could play them back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time, I could spare an extra minute or two
To stop and say "I love you," instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more, so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow to make up for an oversight,
And we always get a second chance to make everything right.

There will always be another day to say our "I love you's",
And certainly there's another chance to say our "Anything I can do's?"

But just in case I might be wrong, and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you and hope we never forget,

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone, young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance you get to hold your love one tight ...

So if you're waiting for tomorrow, why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes, you'll surely regret the day,

That you didn't take that extra time for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
And you were too busy to grant someone, what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today, whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them and that you'll always hold them dear.

Take time to say "I'm sorry", "please forgive me", "thank you", or "it's okay".
And if tomorrow never comes, you'll have no regrets about today.

~Anonymous~

Unkept

2005-07-08T10:37:00.000+08:00

Love Undefined; Love Ignored; Love Unspoken; Love Forsaken.

Silence

2005-07-08T03:13:00.000+08:00

If I love you, don't love me back; the odd is, you might just get hurt

Just a Poem

2005-07-07T09:52:00.000+08:00

Where R U On ICQ
by Tekkobra

Upon this line I found you,
on a little proggie called ICQ,

this ocean called the internet,
you threw me an electronic net.

now you have me and what r you to do?
will you keep me locked away in ICQ?

braving the dangers and the threat,
will I c u is that what u choose?

or will I remain just a name,
and you hidden from me just the same.

Can we realize such a dream,
or always disconnect so safe, so clean...

(just copy - pasted it from somewhere ^^)

Remains Unspoken

2005-07-06T19:32:00.000+08:00

You wore the smile I've never seen before,
But your visage I have discerned never,
You made life sweeter when I felt bitter,
Taken the depression off my shoulder.

You talked akin we have been forever,
I shared as if you were a friend closer,
Inspired me in such many ways and so,
Never knowing, I had the same way too.

We shared our minds, we confided our hearts;
Yet only, we're just simple OL friends.
We've conversed our thoughts and impart our vibes;
Sad, but we were solely each other's guide.

I thought of you, never knew you also do;
Scribbled your name, for I remember you;
As I wait for the hour to meet you too,
And share a story of my life I'll do.

May all this be love or only yearning,
To tell in between is still confusing.
Call this affection or admiration,
But what I feel, BAS, remains a question.

~TBC~

Remains Unspoken

2005-07-06T14:57:00.000+08:00

You wore the smile I've never seen before,
But your visage I have discerned never,
You made life sweeter when I felt bitter,
Taken the depression off my shoulder.

You talked akin we have been forever,
I shared as if you were a friend closer,
Inspired me in such many ways and so,
Never knowing, I had the same way too.

We shared our minds, we confided our hearts;
Yet only, we're just simple OL friends
We've conversed our thoughts and impart our vibes;
Sad, but we were solely each other's guide.

I thought of you, never knew you also do;
Scribbled your name, for I remember you,
As I wait for the hour to meet you too
And share a story of my life I'll do
May all this be love or only yearning
To tell in between is still confusing
Call this affection or admiration
But what I feel, BAS, remains a question.

~TBC~

One

2005-07-05T13:26:00.000+08:00

I'm dumb; I just lost my brain today. I'm numb; my heart has forsaken me away.

Better yet hidden

2005-07-04T09:34:00.000+08:00

*I found something in the internet - something that i never expected to find. It has brought me great happiness and is tearing me apart. All at the same time.*